November 2010
Really really would like something to eat that isn't going to make me throw up or feel vile.
Day 12.What would you say your biggest fear is when it comes to relationships?
Well I’m irrationally insecure so i’m scared of a lot of things when it comes to relationships.
In Ben & I’s relationship though, I think the thing I’m most scared of is just losing him, like if we ended for some sudden & unexpected reason. It terrifies me that one day whatever he feels for me might just go, and actually, I’d fall apart. I can’t imagine where’d I’d be without him, and to have all of that just disappear, well it doesn’t even bare thinking about.
So I ate something. Not a good idea, hello feeling ill again.
Tummy is making hungry noises, but I don’t want to eat because I think it’s going to make me feel ill again. Managed to eat a jacket potatoe yesterday but I don’t know whether it’s that that’s making my tummy feel bleh, the fact I haven’t eaten a lot or because I’ve pulled my tummy muscles from coughing so much :l
You make me terribly sentimental, but I love you, and I don’t care who knows or who gets sick of hearing me say it, because I mean it. Every single time.
